HOOD Diaries: Entry 101

Its the best I could find for now... I need a hood stamp

It's the best I could find for now... I need a "hood" stamp

So originally this post was gonna be about something ghetto I did today (which it still will), but from the moment I did my lil thing… a plethora (yes-plethora) of events took place lol. Okay, so lil miss me did something rather hood, but first… (in the voice of Day Day on Friday After Next) Can I tell my story?! (lol)…
Okay-so I haven’t had a weave in about a year and about two weeks ago I decided to get one… it got to the point that my head was itching because I needed to wash it sooooo when I left my school and hopped on 95, I decided I couldn’t take it any more… Sooo I pulled it all out while I was driving (lol-not funny). Weird thing is, my hair looked kinda okay after that lol.
NEXT!– I hate riding through little Puerto Rico. This kid had his hoodie on as if he was a race horse, considering it was down so low he couldn’t see from the left or right, therefore he couldn’t see me almost run him over because he didn’t peep the green light on my end.
NEXT!– I go to the hair store and shawty got both of her cheeks pierced. Not just regular earrings… noooo, big ‘ol fake diamond studs. On top of that she is taking a vote from customers about getting  a horse shoe lip ring…
NEXT! – I get home (finally) and realized I forgot my keys… Called around for those that had keys to my apartment and found one. As I was waiting these two drunks were down the street fighting in slow motion… One chick took the others shoes and chased her… and there goes the neighborHOOD!

Where I Wanna Be

As I was thinking of this title, this song came to my mind… On the contrary, the answer to my own question of where do I wanna be was… the beach lol. I need to go to a few this summer. Just relax.

But since the song is here… why not mention love. It’s pretty relevant to where I am on the relationship tip these days. The reality is… I don’t wantneed one… not right now. I wanna do too much and don’t need the worry (of any kind) of SOS (someone special). I’ve learned a lot from my mistakes and I’ve also learned a lot about the effort and work that goes into this thing called love. I give a lot. I am certainly in no condition or position to give like that right now, especially because it seems as though every time I work even harder, therefore the fall is even greater. I don’t want that. I consider my past experiences like mini divorces if they lasted a nice length…

like:

  •  who gets the “friends” instead of kids…
  • should I still talk to your family and vice versa…
  • how long should I wait before I bring someone else to places we’ve been
  • should I call or text on ya b-day (or should I still have your number?)
  • anniversary
  • what will I feel like if I run into you after a long time
  • how do I know the next one will be different (if I want a next rela)… and many other factors

I have really learned to count the cost in this thing and it is not a price I am willing to pay right now. I just wanna have fun and friends. Experience the world and travel. Learn new things and figure out who I am and wanna be… I think D.C. (Destiny’s Child not Dane Cooklol) said it best… ain’t no feeling like be free (when your mind’s made up and your heart is in the right place)…

-Signed, …I’m sorry if ya dig me (especially if I dig you too… lol-not funny)

Part of My Issue

Okay… I realize that there are several other contributing factors as to why I more than likely am not getting this work done (i.e.- the genius over consumption of caffeine, exhaustion, stress, frustration, and so on). Hoooowever, [in the voice of Franklin from My Wife and Kids] (lol-not funny) there is another factor that I “guess” I have control over… procrastination. It’s difficult though and I believe it has always been this way for me. I typically do my best work under pressure and that’s for just about everything [unfortunately].

So what do I do now?

I have joined the club...

I have joined the club...

...bought the t-shirt...

...bought the t-shirt...

...and wrote endless lists!

...and wrote endless lists!

 

Yet and still here I am… staring at two different monitors, books, notes and other things that won’t get done until I do it. I can’t say I have no motivation because I do. I don’t understand this and I don’t have a lot of time to waste because I need to finish all of this work by Friday! Oy!

Signed, … I’ll get right to it… (riiiight)

Souljah Boy Tell’em!!

smh @ myself (smh = shake my head, for those who have always silently wondered)… so this song has been stuck in my head all day [Kiss Me Through the Phone], therefore I decided to listen to it (all day) lol. The hook is just too cute. As for Souljah Boy, I am not a fan at all and I am not going to get into why because major bash-idge would be happening… so I give him props for this one.

btw (by the way), I didn’t realize it until I looked up the video to link it to this blog that I had never seen Souljah Boy until like 3 minutes ago lol. Sammie grew up to be a cutie from the “I Like It” days lol. Sammie’s cd was the first cd I ever bought on my own, haha. Anyways, cute song… Back to the hustle & bustle of surviving beyond Friday… Be encouraged!

-Signed, 6, 7 ,8, Triple 9, 8, 2, 1, 2

Stupid 309

Death Route 309 lol (not funny)

Death Route 309 lol (not funny)

Soooo… I just finished a 14hr shift which is enough in itself… but then I had to get on the infamous 309, which I lovehate dearly, especially when it’s just one lane and I feel like I’m in an action movie.

Maybe I am a lil claustrophobic, so what, but I don’t even think I was breathing until I got through that part. Stupid tunnel without a top of a expressway (or whatever it is!). Not to mention it is worse at night…

But that was my random rant since that is my new commute for half of my week now… all I can say is… Lord cover me…

 

 

As for today… I didn’t learn my lesson with the Red Bull… not only did I not learn, I drank an Amp

180mg of caffine (I'm not built for all that)

180mg of caffine (I'm not built for all that)

today that was two serving sizes (I am nuts!)… It got me sick though, so I will say again that I learned my lesson lol. Day 3 without sleep… c’mon finals! back to homework…

Young & RESTLESS!

Red Bull gives you wings alright
Red Bull gives you wings alright

So I had a Red Bull earlier today (maybe like 5pm). It was the first one I’ve had since they came out and I didn’t really remember if it had any impact that time… but, obviously now I know! I can’t sleep!I feel like a feine every time I lay down and even kinda fidgety (is that a word? idk). I am supposed to be gettin’ up for work in two hours… This is going to be a very long shift.

 Maybe I should cook breakfast, shower, and get dressed (lolnot funny)? But that would at least be on the productive side of things… Anywho… I have learned my lesson! My sleep patterns will be off all week, I know it. I gotta be careful with that liquid crack, lol. But I hope you have a great day! Be encouraged!
-Signed, Sleepless… in not Seattle :0)

Where’s This [Blog] Going?

This Can\’t Be Life by Jay-Z

Where do I begin? I’m up… likely out of anxiety or maybe that Red Bull I had earlier (lol).

Random facts:

  1. the song posted is almost always how I feel and/or what I’m not saying.
  2. I love questions/interaction
  3. sometimes these blogs will be to vent and I may not mean it later
  4. music is a therapy for me
  5. iWrite a lot, therefore, iThink a lot!
  6. I am extremely random and every bit of extraordinary ;0)

At this moment, I am wondering about some decisions I’ve made in the last maybe 72 hours, especially since they were rather weighty. I pray I made wise choices, but if they were wrong, I will know and address it when it comes. So this is the beginning of a possibly good thing (this blog)… As for this song… it’s rather relevant right now because in most cases a lot of things aren’t going according to plan, but maybe they just aren’t supposed to. We’ll see…